Life on hold

As I have said I plan to leave California when Zack finishes High School in just over 3 years. But there is a problem with that. I will admit that I really have no life here, but that doesn't mean that I don't want one. I like my job enough and the people are nice, but most days I only have about 5 minutes of work to do for the entire day. But since it took me so long to find this job and I am planning to leave in a few years it is just easier to stay put. Same thing with dating, though I will admit that even though I want a relationship I admit that I seem to suck at making friends since I have none on the entire West Coast and I have been here for over 10 years. But back to the problem. Putting myself out there and taking chances is hard enough as is with out this deadline hovering in the not to distant future. But I also know that I am pretty miserable now and staying in this limbo for 3 more years is a terrible thought. So as I was looking for a part time job yesterday I found a listing for a Full time position for a receptionist at a Vets office. I don't know if anything will come of it but we will see. I also put in a couple applications for part time evening jobs. And maybe if I had a job that puts me out there more I might actually meet someone. At least I need to try to keep an open mind. Also if I am working 55-60+ hours a week at least that will give me less time to deal with my mothers crap. Wish me luck.

Good Bye Money Hello New Car

Well this weekend I started with the first step on my plan to get out of Cali. I bought myself a new to me car. It is a 2014 Hyundai Tucson, It has all kinds of bells and whistles but the best part is that it has low miles and it is new and reliable. It will also hopefully save me on gas and definitely on repairs for the next few years and will be able to make the trip back east when the time comes. Now on to the next part of the plan and that is to find a part time job to help offset the car payments and maybe put something away in savings.

Changes

So this summer Taryn won't be coming home from college and Zack is hoping to take classes at LASC. I honestly don't know what I will do other than work my hours and spend the weekends running errands. I wish I had interesting or fun stuff to talk about in these posts but I guess that is the reason why i stopped before. I work full time and have no local friends so my time is spent alone, mostly at home. I crochet but that is solitary and the family and animals, not to mention money keeps me from going any where on the weekends. I guess this summer will include me starting to clean up and fix up the house but it is amazing how fast the weekends go when you are the only one grocery shopping, driving and what not. It is going to be weird not having Taryn around as she is the only one I do anything with here. I have nothing in common with my Mother and honestly can't stand her most of the time. And Zack is your typical teenage boy who would never disconnect from his xbox if he had a choice. I guess it is looking like a lot of crocheting and walking in my future.

Cha Ching

I really need to figure out a way to earn some money, Right now I am living a paycheck to paycheck life with little left over to put into savings. I have applied for one part time job but with having to get a newer car soon that still won't be enough. The thing is I want to move away from California, there is nothing here for me and even my kids are over it. But it isn't as easy as just packing up and going. We aren't talking about a cross town move here we are talking new job, new housing, 3-4 thousand just to get the minimum of my stuff back to Ohio, not to mention I currently have 14 animals that I would have to deal with and though some would be re homed here there are others that can not go on an airplane, Thanks Hollywood for Snakes on a Plane. So when all my friends tell me they miss me and want me to come back it makes me feel wanted but it also makes it really hard to continue on with my lack of life here. So back to the original issue how can I save up at least 10K so that I can at least make it back to Columbus someday. I haven't heard back about the job application I submitted online over a week ago so maybe I need to stop by the place and see if I can pick up one there. I wonder if these big companies even check the online applications? I also need to figure out how to save even a little each month. But no matter it looks like I am back to waiting until Z graduates in 3+ years before I can do anything. 1202 days left. : (

Free Floating

For the longest time I have had to come home from work and make dinner, others are aloud to come and go and have plans but me, I'm the mom and I have to make dinner for the Family. But for the first time in years I will have a true night off. None of this leftovers night stuff but a no one at home for hours night off. And it should be a weekly thing for months. So this being said, I have absolutely no idea what to do with myself. Tuesday nights are when my mom goes walking with my Aunt so up until this week it was just me and Zack, but now he is taking evening classes Mondays and Tuesdays so he will be gone until late. Tonight I am thinking of shopping and getting my hair cut, but I will have to see what I can plan for the coming weeks. I am excited, I miss the quite you never seem to get if you don't live alone. I should have at least until 7:30 when mom gets home. I would have a drink but there is always the chance I will have to go pick up Zack so i will leave that to Fridays when I hide in my room after dinner.

Ready

If anyone actually followed this before, You know that I rarely posted and usually only to rant. Well hopefully there will be more posting and less ranting, though i can not guarantee anything. I am a single mom living with my mother whom I really don't like most of the time, and my teenage son who tries me at every turn. I moved to California 11 years or so ago hoping to find a better life only to find nothing. Now I am in count down mode to my son graduating and me finally having a good enough reason to leave my mom's house and find a life I like and get away from the emotional abuse and stress that is my life right now. My son is in 9th grade so unfortunately the wait is long on my life changes but it is also foreseeable too. I am trying to get things in order so that when the time comes I will have the tools to free myself. First step is to keep the job I have and build up a savings and fix any credit problems I have. To do that I need a better car. So as soon as I hear back from the bank on pre-approval on a car loan and get my tax refund I will start the hunt. Wish me luck